Monday, April 11, 2011

Why Does My Job or Lack There Of Define Me?

Why does my day job define me as a person? I am struggling with this because last week I got laid off.

All my life I have worked to be "someone" and my job I had helped define me. It was an 8:30-5, Monday-Friday grownup job that I could tell people about when they said, "tell me about you" I could tell them all about the responsibilities and hardships and people I worked with and it made me feel important...Now what?
I would like to have alot more to say about me when people ask, because in the famous words of Tyler Durdan "You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis. You're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world"

So from this point on, I will (when I get a new job) not use my job to define me. I am alot more then a stupid job in a stupid office, dealing with stupid customers!

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

I'm a Human and I'm Not Going to Tell You Again!! Damn it.

I don't want to have to explain to other people that I'm a human. I have feelings, even though they may be silly, dumb, outrageous, ingenious, ridiculous, crazy, jealous, happy, insecure, neurotic, obsessive...Need I go on?? My favorite thing is when someone doesn't understand your feeling and so you get the eye roll, I mean, who would think a human being would posses all these feelings??? "How dare you tell me about your feeling, what are you.....a....a...human...ewe, how weird." Then the whispering starts, "did you see her...the one with two eyes and 2 ears, I think she is one of those humans with those feelings"!  

If I feel any one of the above feelings, its because I'm a human being and suffer from human being defectiveness. Its ok for me to have occasional silly, dumb, outrageous, ingenious, ridiculous, crazy, jealous, happy, insecure, neurotic, obsessive feelings! Happy feelings are most prevalent and for that I am grateful, even though some other human beings are not ok with you being happy all the time let me remind you I'm a Human and I'm Not Going to Tell You Again!! Damn it.